Ready, but afraid to commit..
After much deliberation, I think I finally understand the feeling that is in my heart at the moment.. It is a feeling of "ready for commitment, but afraid to commit".. I think I'm ready to commit myself to a relationship, but I'm actually afraid to do so, for fear of it turning out to be another heartbreak for me..
Things haven't been going smoothly for me in my search for "The One".. My first brush with unrequited love happens to be my first and largest heartbreak.. I was in love with this girl for 5 years.. Yet I did not tell her about it.. When I finally told her, that also signifies the end.. Maybe this incident is the cause of the feeling which I'm having now.. The feeling of "ready, but afraid to commit"..
I'm in a total dilemma now.. I have a feeling that 'F' has the things I'm looking for in my search for "The One".. Yet, I'm really afraid to commit myself to this unknown future.. If I were to commit myself to something which I'm unsure of, then I know it would be hard for me to let go if things don't go smoothly.. Hence I think that is why I'm so hesitant to commit myself too deeply.. Maybe this is also why I was able to let go of my feelings for the girl mentioned in my post "About A Girl".. With this, I think I finally got my answer to whether I'm a fickle person..
I'm glad I'm not.. Yea.. I'm just afraid to commit..
Well.. Finally managed to understand myself more.. Guess I'm more in sync with my feelings now.. Really hope things would turn out well between me and 'F'.. Really hope that she is truly "The One" for me.. Yea..
Things haven't been going smoothly for me in my search for "The One".. My first brush with unrequited love happens to be my first and largest heartbreak.. I was in love with this girl for 5 years.. Yet I did not tell her about it.. When I finally told her, that also signifies the end.. Maybe this incident is the cause of the feeling which I'm having now.. The feeling of "ready, but afraid to commit"..
I'm in a total dilemma now.. I have a feeling that 'F' has the things I'm looking for in my search for "The One".. Yet, I'm really afraid to commit myself to this unknown future.. If I were to commit myself to something which I'm unsure of, then I know it would be hard for me to let go if things don't go smoothly.. Hence I think that is why I'm so hesitant to commit myself too deeply.. Maybe this is also why I was able to let go of my feelings for the girl mentioned in my post "About A Girl".. With this, I think I finally got my answer to whether I'm a fickle person..
I'm glad I'm not.. Yea.. I'm just afraid to commit..
Well.. Finally managed to understand myself more.. Guess I'm more in sync with my feelings now.. Really hope things would turn out well between me and 'F'.. Really hope that she is truly "The One" for me.. Yea..