All of a sudden.. I feel so lost...
Went out with Gun Kiat, Weiming and Bernard today.. Met up with Bernard and Gun Kiat at 11am to sing KTV at K-Box Cineleisure.. Sang all the way till around 2:30pm.. Weiming came at around 2pm.. After the singing session, we made our way to Plaza Singapura..
Gun Kiat and Bernard had to leave early, while Weiming is meeting up with his girlfriend (Let me recall: Her name is Jingwen).. Was originally meeting David at around 4pm, but since everyone is leaving, we decided to meet up with him another day.. All of us decided to stay and chat with Weiming until his girlfriend arrive.. When she finally came, we took some time for introduction before leaving soon after (Hey.. Who needs extra people when going on a date?? Yea.. Just kidding).. Soon, all of us parted ways cause we're all going different ways.. For me, I went down to City Hall to get my guitar string.. Went home after that..
All of a sudden, I feel so lost.. Everyone seems so preoccupied with their own stuff.. Studies seem to be on everybody's mind.. Looks like I'm the only one slacking away.. Need to buck up soon.. Actually, I feel lost not only because of this.. It seems that everything is not the same as before..
As time goes by, everyone seems too busy to meet up with one another.. In addition, one by one, my best friends are getting attached.. First is Weiming, and David will most probably be the second.. Who will be the next in line?? Suddenly, I feel so lonely.. Maybe that's why I feel so lost.. Really feel like talking to someone, yet I could not find anyone to talk to.. Everyone is so busy.. Don't worry guys, I'm just expressing my thoughts.. I'll be fine once I get through this phase of my life..
Has been listening to Savage Garden's "Santa Monica" these few days.. Quite an old song, but a song that just sound so melancholic and full of emotions.. Coincidentally, this song is about loneliness.. A sentence in this song accurately sums up how I'm feeling at the moment.. "I never felt so lonely, never felt so out of place".. Yea, this sentence fully expresses how I feel now..
Went on a rollercoaster of emotions on my way back today.. Listened to Savage Garden's songs on my way back.. As I listened to their songs, my feelings went from melancholic to lonely to full of hope.. "Two beds and a coffee machine" brought me to a state of melancholy; "Santa Monica" brought me to a state of loneliness; while "Truly, madly, deeply" brought me to a state of hope.. But I guess I'm still full of hope at the moment, just a little lonely..
Can't help but wonder: why am I feeling this way?? I'm always quite comfortable with keeping to myself.. But now, things seem to be so different.. After some reflection, I think I found the answer.. I guess things around me are affecting how I feel.. But most importantly, I think 'F' is the main reason why I'm feeling this way..
I guess 'F' has totally taken over my heart.. Although I've said some time ago that it's very difficult to change a person's personality, I think I'm being affected by 'F' in some ways.. When you love someone, you will also like things which that person likes.. I guess I understand what that means now.. 'F' likes English songs, and now I'm also beginning to appreciate English songs.. All the while, I'm more into Chinese songs.. I'm quite sure it is a difficult task to change my likings.. But if someone is able to make me experience changes, then I guess she must mean a lot to me.. And the only girl so far who has the ability to induce a change in me is 'F'.. To 'F' (Although I don't think she'll see this): I concede defeat.. Much as I would like to put up a fight.. I couldn't... I've lost.. My heart.. To you...
Which may be why I'm feeling so lost now.. Cause my future with her is still a big unknown at the moment.. Yet, she already mean so much to me.. I can't imagine what would happen if things don't turn out well between us.. Yea.. I'm so lost now.. Really at a lost as to what to do.. I'm putting in too much of my feelings into this unknown future.. Really, really afraid of losing everything in an instant.. Perhaps this is why I feel so lonely and lost at the moment..
Feel so much better after voicing out my thoughts.. Don't worry.. Time will tell what will happen.. Hopefully by then I'll have enough courage to face up to what awaits me.. I wouldn't fall so easily.. I'll put in my best effort.. Wish me luck...
Gun Kiat and Bernard had to leave early, while Weiming is meeting up with his girlfriend (Let me recall: Her name is Jingwen).. Was originally meeting David at around 4pm, but since everyone is leaving, we decided to meet up with him another day.. All of us decided to stay and chat with Weiming until his girlfriend arrive.. When she finally came, we took some time for introduction before leaving soon after (Hey.. Who needs extra people when going on a date?? Yea.. Just kidding).. Soon, all of us parted ways cause we're all going different ways.. For me, I went down to City Hall to get my guitar string.. Went home after that..
All of a sudden, I feel so lost.. Everyone seems so preoccupied with their own stuff.. Studies seem to be on everybody's mind.. Looks like I'm the only one slacking away.. Need to buck up soon.. Actually, I feel lost not only because of this.. It seems that everything is not the same as before..
As time goes by, everyone seems too busy to meet up with one another.. In addition, one by one, my best friends are getting attached.. First is Weiming, and David will most probably be the second.. Who will be the next in line?? Suddenly, I feel so lonely.. Maybe that's why I feel so lost.. Really feel like talking to someone, yet I could not find anyone to talk to.. Everyone is so busy.. Don't worry guys, I'm just expressing my thoughts.. I'll be fine once I get through this phase of my life..
Has been listening to Savage Garden's "Santa Monica" these few days.. Quite an old song, but a song that just sound so melancholic and full of emotions.. Coincidentally, this song is about loneliness.. A sentence in this song accurately sums up how I'm feeling at the moment.. "I never felt so lonely, never felt so out of place".. Yea, this sentence fully expresses how I feel now..
Went on a rollercoaster of emotions on my way back today.. Listened to Savage Garden's songs on my way back.. As I listened to their songs, my feelings went from melancholic to lonely to full of hope.. "Two beds and a coffee machine" brought me to a state of melancholy; "Santa Monica" brought me to a state of loneliness; while "Truly, madly, deeply" brought me to a state of hope.. But I guess I'm still full of hope at the moment, just a little lonely..
Can't help but wonder: why am I feeling this way?? I'm always quite comfortable with keeping to myself.. But now, things seem to be so different.. After some reflection, I think I found the answer.. I guess things around me are affecting how I feel.. But most importantly, I think 'F' is the main reason why I'm feeling this way..
I guess 'F' has totally taken over my heart.. Although I've said some time ago that it's very difficult to change a person's personality, I think I'm being affected by 'F' in some ways.. When you love someone, you will also like things which that person likes.. I guess I understand what that means now.. 'F' likes English songs, and now I'm also beginning to appreciate English songs.. All the while, I'm more into Chinese songs.. I'm quite sure it is a difficult task to change my likings.. But if someone is able to make me experience changes, then I guess she must mean a lot to me.. And the only girl so far who has the ability to induce a change in me is 'F'.. To 'F' (Although I don't think she'll see this): I concede defeat.. Much as I would like to put up a fight.. I couldn't... I've lost.. My heart.. To you...
Which may be why I'm feeling so lost now.. Cause my future with her is still a big unknown at the moment.. Yet, she already mean so much to me.. I can't imagine what would happen if things don't turn out well between us.. Yea.. I'm so lost now.. Really at a lost as to what to do.. I'm putting in too much of my feelings into this unknown future.. Really, really afraid of losing everything in an instant.. Perhaps this is why I feel so lonely and lost at the moment..
Feel so much better after voicing out my thoughts.. Don't worry.. Time will tell what will happen.. Hopefully by then I'll have enough courage to face up to what awaits me.. I wouldn't fall so easily.. I'll put in my best effort.. Wish me luck...