Is this a good trait??
Chatted with 'F' over MSN yesterday.. Although it was a short casual chat, it was better than nothing at all.. At least I finally took the initiative to chat with her.. Found out that she's very busy for the whole of this week.. Well.. Guess that means there's no chance of meeting up with her for this week.. Decided not to do anything to disturb her already-packed schedule..
After much reflection, I discovered a trait in me that went as far as 8 years back.. Although I came to know of its existence some time ago, I couldn't really confirm it until recently.. Now I'm very sure this is a distinctive trait of mine.. The trait I'm talking about is being committed to only 1 girl each time.. Yea.. I found out that once I'm committed to a girl, I will not let any other girls into my guarded territory.. This means that once I've truly fallen in love with a girl, I will not consider other girls anymore.. At that moment of time, even the most beautiful girl will mean nothing to me.. In my eyes, they will be just ordinary.. I'm not sure if this is a good trait or not, cause this is a very subjective issue.. Some might say that it is a good trait, cause this means that I would remain true to 1 girl and not be attracted by others.. However, others may argue that I will be giving up possible relationships along the way, and I would have nothing to fall back on if this girl doesn't like me.. Personally, if you ask me, I would consider this trait of mine as a good one..
Yet, this trait was the one that had me committed to the very first girl I fell in love with 8 years ago.. I was so committed to her for 5 years.. However, everything came falling down in just a second.. After that, I begin to wonder: What would have happen if I were open to other possible relationships along the way?? When I came to this point, I told myself: No way.. Once I'm committed to a girl, I wouldn't think of other girls.. Hence, I've never regretted my decision to love her for 5 years, although the end result was a heartbreak.. To me, this is a beautiful memory that is going to stay with me.. And I think this trait of mine is also going to stay..
I think I'm saying strange things again.. Bringing up matters of the past.. Yea.. Guess I should stop now.. Going back to my dreamland again.. The only place where I'll see 'F'.. For now..
After much reflection, I discovered a trait in me that went as far as 8 years back.. Although I came to know of its existence some time ago, I couldn't really confirm it until recently.. Now I'm very sure this is a distinctive trait of mine.. The trait I'm talking about is being committed to only 1 girl each time.. Yea.. I found out that once I'm committed to a girl, I will not let any other girls into my guarded territory.. This means that once I've truly fallen in love with a girl, I will not consider other girls anymore.. At that moment of time, even the most beautiful girl will mean nothing to me.. In my eyes, they will be just ordinary.. I'm not sure if this is a good trait or not, cause this is a very subjective issue.. Some might say that it is a good trait, cause this means that I would remain true to 1 girl and not be attracted by others.. However, others may argue that I will be giving up possible relationships along the way, and I would have nothing to fall back on if this girl doesn't like me.. Personally, if you ask me, I would consider this trait of mine as a good one..
Yet, this trait was the one that had me committed to the very first girl I fell in love with 8 years ago.. I was so committed to her for 5 years.. However, everything came falling down in just a second.. After that, I begin to wonder: What would have happen if I were open to other possible relationships along the way?? When I came to this point, I told myself: No way.. Once I'm committed to a girl, I wouldn't think of other girls.. Hence, I've never regretted my decision to love her for 5 years, although the end result was a heartbreak.. To me, this is a beautiful memory that is going to stay with me.. And I think this trait of mine is also going to stay..
I think I'm saying strange things again.. Bringing up matters of the past.. Yea.. Guess I should stop now.. Going back to my dreamland again.. The only place where I'll see 'F'.. For now..