Karaoke session tomorrow..
Decided to meet up with ShwuYun for the karaoke session tomorrow.. We were pondering over whether we should have the karaoke session before our exams or after.. In the end, we decided to have it before the examinations.. This is in fact the default option, cause the closing date of Impresario happens to fall on the final day of my exam.. Hence, we have to meet up before our exams to decide on the song..
Forcing myself not to think too deeply into this karaoke session.. Forcing myself to treat this meeting as just a casual meeting between friends.. As I've said before, I'm feeling really jaded.. Don't feel like giving myself any false hopes.. Just let nature take its own course.. If things turn out well between us, then so be it; if things don't turn out well, at least I can tell myself that I've already expected this.. I guess this is the best thing to do for the moment.. I know it's difficult for me to let go of my feelings, but at least I'm willing to give it a try.. Let's just hope nothing too unexpected comes along the way..
After thinking through and doing some self-reflection, I realized that I'm a little too critical of myself.. Although I know it's a bad idea to be caught between 2 girls and not knowing what I really want, I guess I've went too far when I said I'm betraying my feelings for 'F'.. Cause there were no promises made in the first place.. She doesn't know my feelings for her.. Who knows, it might just be one-sided on my part.. As such, I don't think I'm really betraying my feelings for her.. Everything is still in its initial stages, and the future is still unknown.. I guess I still have my rights to decide who I really like.. I must try not to be so critical of myself, or else I might make the wrong decisions along the way.. I guess I should trust my feelings..
I guess there's no point thinking so much at the moment.. I'll just wait and see what happens tomorrow.. Back to my daily dose of Rock.. Since I'm listening to L'Arc~en~Ciel at the moment, I guess I'll just post the lyrics to one of their songs.. This song is called "Lost Heaven", and I really, really like this song.. This is the song that brought me into the world of L'Arc~en~Ciel, and I've never looked back since.. This is still one of my favourite songs.. Enjoy the lyrics to the song, written by Hyde..
LOST HEAVEN
Artist: L'Arc~en~Ciel
Words: Hyde
Music: Ken
Woah! kasaneawaseta yume wo daite
hateshinai rakuen he
mou nakusu mono sae mitsukaranai
kakenuketa haruka na michi
nani hitotsu utagau koto mo shiranakatta ne
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost.
te wo nobashi tsukanda yume ha
sotto kuzureyuku suna no shiro
tada tachitsukushiteta wakare michi
hohoemi wo nokoshite
kieteitta kimi ga egaku rakuen he to
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost.
hitotsu ni narenai ukanda hoshikuzu
hitotsu no shuuen ni akai hanataba wo
kakedashita shisen no saki ga shinkirou demo
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven!
I wish you good luck. I still remember every day.
TRANSLATION
Woah! with our dreams together as one
onward to a never ending paradise
a distant road we ran down
unable to even find something to lose
we didn't have any reason to doubt
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost.
the dream we caught hold of when we reached out our hands
was a gently crumbling castle of sand
I'm left just standing there at the fork in the road,
as you disappear toward the paradise you dreamed of
leaving me with a smile.
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost.
all that stardust in the sky that can't come together as one
a bouquet of red flowers for the end of this play
even if what I see ahead as I start off again is just a mirage
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven!
I wish you good luck. I still remember every day.
Forcing myself not to think too deeply into this karaoke session.. Forcing myself to treat this meeting as just a casual meeting between friends.. As I've said before, I'm feeling really jaded.. Don't feel like giving myself any false hopes.. Just let nature take its own course.. If things turn out well between us, then so be it; if things don't turn out well, at least I can tell myself that I've already expected this.. I guess this is the best thing to do for the moment.. I know it's difficult for me to let go of my feelings, but at least I'm willing to give it a try.. Let's just hope nothing too unexpected comes along the way..
After thinking through and doing some self-reflection, I realized that I'm a little too critical of myself.. Although I know it's a bad idea to be caught between 2 girls and not knowing what I really want, I guess I've went too far when I said I'm betraying my feelings for 'F'.. Cause there were no promises made in the first place.. She doesn't know my feelings for her.. Who knows, it might just be one-sided on my part.. As such, I don't think I'm really betraying my feelings for her.. Everything is still in its initial stages, and the future is still unknown.. I guess I still have my rights to decide who I really like.. I must try not to be so critical of myself, or else I might make the wrong decisions along the way.. I guess I should trust my feelings..
I guess there's no point thinking so much at the moment.. I'll just wait and see what happens tomorrow.. Back to my daily dose of Rock.. Since I'm listening to L'Arc~en~Ciel at the moment, I guess I'll just post the lyrics to one of their songs.. This song is called "Lost Heaven", and I really, really like this song.. This is the song that brought me into the world of L'Arc~en~Ciel, and I've never looked back since.. This is still one of my favourite songs.. Enjoy the lyrics to the song, written by Hyde..
LOST HEAVEN
Artist: L'Arc~en~Ciel
Words: Hyde
Music: Ken
Woah! kasaneawaseta yume wo daite
hateshinai rakuen he
mou nakusu mono sae mitsukaranai
kakenuketa haruka na michi
nani hitotsu utagau koto mo shiranakatta ne
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost.
te wo nobashi tsukanda yume ha
sotto kuzureyuku suna no shiro
tada tachitsukushiteta wakare michi
hohoemi wo nokoshite
kieteitta kimi ga egaku rakuen he to
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost.
hitotsu ni narenai ukanda hoshikuzu
hitotsu no shuuen ni akai hanataba wo
kakedashita shisen no saki ga shinkirou demo
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven!
I wish you good luck. I still remember every day.
TRANSLATION
Woah! with our dreams together as one
onward to a never ending paradise
a distant road we ran down
unable to even find something to lose
we didn't have any reason to doubt
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost.
the dream we caught hold of when we reached out our hands
was a gently crumbling castle of sand
I'm left just standing there at the fork in the road,
as you disappear toward the paradise you dreamed of
leaving me with a smile.
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven is lost.
all that stardust in the sky that can't come together as one
a bouquet of red flowers for the end of this play
even if what I see ahead as I start off again is just a mirage
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven
We'll say goodbye, lost Heaven.
How we longed for Heaven.
We're letting go of something we never had.
Time goes so fast, Heaven!
I wish you good luck. I still remember every day.