An alternative path??
Today is the start of my examinations.. My first paper: Mathematics.. To me, Mathematics is my biggest weakness.. Wasn't really well-prepared for the paper.. But still tried my best for it.. The paper was though, but as I've already expected things to be worse, it turned out that it was not as bad as I thought after all.. Still, I don't think I did well for the paper.. Just hope that I wouldn't fail it..
Today, I've come to realize something.. And that is: University is for 3 types of people.. First: Those who are very smart.. Second: Those who are very hardworking.. Third: Those who are very smart AND very hardworking.. Unfortunately, I don't belong to any of the above categories.. This makes me wonder if I deserve a place in NTU.. My 2 weeks before the examminations were completely wasted by me.. Didn't manage to study much, although I tried telling myself to.. In the end, my lack of self-motivation and my laziness prevailed.. As I thought of this, I can't help but feel like thinking of an alternative path to take should I fail to go further in University..
Thought of taking up formal guitar lessons during the December holidays after my examinations.. Then if I'm able to grasp what is being taught, maybe I can take the ABRSM exams which follows after the lessons.. If I'm able to pass the exams, then I'll have something to prove that I have learnt guitar formally.. The certificate will then open the doors for me to schools such as NAFA and others.. It seems that I've thought of an alternative route to take.. But I guess all these will only take place if I fail to proceed in NTU (which I hope not).. However, I do think that my true calling is Music.. And the guitar is something that I play almost every day.. So it would be great if I'm learning something which I'm interested in.. But I do hope that I can continue my studies in NTU.. Hopefully..
Well.. I guess exam stress is getting to me.. Making me think of alternative paths and all that.. But it's really a daunting thought to take my exams while being so ill-prepared.. I guess I'll just have to see what happens next.. Well then.. Have to start studying for my next paper: Electronics.. Another killer paper.. Wish for the best..
Today, I've come to realize something.. And that is: University is for 3 types of people.. First: Those who are very smart.. Second: Those who are very hardworking.. Third: Those who are very smart AND very hardworking.. Unfortunately, I don't belong to any of the above categories.. This makes me wonder if I deserve a place in NTU.. My 2 weeks before the examminations were completely wasted by me.. Didn't manage to study much, although I tried telling myself to.. In the end, my lack of self-motivation and my laziness prevailed.. As I thought of this, I can't help but feel like thinking of an alternative path to take should I fail to go further in University..
Thought of taking up formal guitar lessons during the December holidays after my examinations.. Then if I'm able to grasp what is being taught, maybe I can take the ABRSM exams which follows after the lessons.. If I'm able to pass the exams, then I'll have something to prove that I have learnt guitar formally.. The certificate will then open the doors for me to schools such as NAFA and others.. It seems that I've thought of an alternative route to take.. But I guess all these will only take place if I fail to proceed in NTU (which I hope not).. However, I do think that my true calling is Music.. And the guitar is something that I play almost every day.. So it would be great if I'm learning something which I'm interested in.. But I do hope that I can continue my studies in NTU.. Hopefully..
Well.. I guess exam stress is getting to me.. Making me think of alternative paths and all that.. But it's really a daunting thought to take my exams while being so ill-prepared.. I guess I'll just have to see what happens next.. Well then.. Have to start studying for my next paper: Electronics.. Another killer paper.. Wish for the best..