Confusion???
Am I still confused?? Perhaps.. Or perhaps not... ... I guess I'm still confused after all.. I thought I was able to let go of my feelings.. But in the end, I think I couldn't..
Really felt that chances of me and SY working out is really very low.. But still I'm not able to let go.. Cause everything still seems to remain a mystery as of now.. I don't know if she's attached.. I don't know if she already has someone in her heart.. I don't know how she feels about me.. I don't seem to know anything at all.. With all these unknowns, I don't see how we can end up together..
Really felt like giving her up a few days ago.. But in the end, I faltered.. An innocent sentence exchanged through MSN suddenly brought hope back to me.. "go to K after open sch, k?" was what she told me.. I know I shouldn't look too deep into this very innocent sentence.. But this statement really gave me a glimmer of hope.. I once told her that although we couldn't take part in Impresario this year, we could always meet up for KTV some other time.. I was quite surprised she remembered this.. Although I know this is just a very innocent statement, and I'm giving myself false hopes by thinking too much, I really couldn't help myself.. Just couldn't help it..
But I guess after thinking for the past few days, I got some answers.. Perhaps not all the answers I want, but at least it's better than none.. I must try not to let myself think too much.. Just let Fate decide if SY is the one for me.. I will try not to do too many unnecessary things, and just let nature take its course.. Leave things to Fate, perhaps.. Yea.. I guess i have to do just that..
Really felt that chances of me and SY working out is really very low.. But still I'm not able to let go.. Cause everything still seems to remain a mystery as of now.. I don't know if she's attached.. I don't know if she already has someone in her heart.. I don't know how she feels about me.. I don't seem to know anything at all.. With all these unknowns, I don't see how we can end up together..
Really felt like giving her up a few days ago.. But in the end, I faltered.. An innocent sentence exchanged through MSN suddenly brought hope back to me.. "go to K after open sch, k?" was what she told me.. I know I shouldn't look too deep into this very innocent sentence.. But this statement really gave me a glimmer of hope.. I once told her that although we couldn't take part in Impresario this year, we could always meet up for KTV some other time.. I was quite surprised she remembered this.. Although I know this is just a very innocent statement, and I'm giving myself false hopes by thinking too much, I really couldn't help myself.. Just couldn't help it..
But I guess after thinking for the past few days, I got some answers.. Perhaps not all the answers I want, but at least it's better than none.. I must try not to let myself think too much.. Just let Fate decide if SY is the one for me.. I will try not to do too many unnecessary things, and just let nature take its course.. Leave things to Fate, perhaps.. Yea.. I guess i have to do just that..