Burning...

Went for our Geyong activity yesterday.. Was supposed to present a song with edited lyrics for yesterday's Geyong.. Surprisingly, not a lot of people turned up yesterday.. I guess not many people actually prepared themselves for yesterday.. In fact, it appeared to me that I was the only one who actually bothered to edit a song with my own lyrics.. As this was the case, I had no choice but to present my piece of work to those who were present yesterday..

Things did not go very well when I presented the song with Gun Kiat yesterday.. As Gun Kiat had a makeup lecture prior to yesterday's activity, we did not have any time to rehearse.. As such, we presented the song without any real rehearsal.. I must say it was really a wonder that we actually managed to present something even though we were so ill-prepared.. However, I guessed I messed up everything by singing and playing the guitar wrongly for some parts.. But I guess that was the best I could do, considering the fact that I only tried playing the song 1 day before the actual presentation.. After Geyong, one of my seniors, Sulin, told me that my lyrics were cute, and she added that it was a very creative idea to write the second part of the song with the same lyrics by changing all the "I' to "you" and vice versa..But I must really thank Gun Kiat for sticking with me through the whole song.. Although we met with a lot of errors along the way, this was still a great experience for both of us.. Hope we can do better next time..

Prior to Geyong yesterday, I checked my email in the library after my lessons ended.. Saw an email by my seniors informing that I've been selected to perform during our Lunchtime Concert.. Was delighted at this news, since this will be a much bigger event compared to the 2 previous concerts which I have performed in.. This is a great chance for me to gather more stage experience, since it would be held outside Canteen A, where there will be a lot of people.. My seniors recommended that I can try singing David Tao's "Pu Tong Peng You" on that day.. This song is what I would consider a very challenging song.. But I really hope to give it a try.. Cause by taking up such a challenge, it would be a very vital step to improving myself..

SY was also selected to sing in the Lunchtime Concert.. However, she was arranged to sing a duet with another guy, Ling Chong, from Geyong.. To be frank, I was quite envious of Ling Chong when I saw the email, although I'm not really sure what was the real reason.. Perhaps I was envious that he would be singing a duet with SY.. This would mean that I haven't come round to the idea of giving SY up totally.. I guess this will take some time.. Or perhaps it is because I have missed out on a chance to sing with such a wonderful singer.. Whatever it is, the arrangements have already been made.. So just leave things as it is..

Heard SY and Ling Chong practised after Geyong yesterday.. They are really very good!! I guess Ling Chong was able to bring out the best in SY, something which I guessed I failed to do.. At the thought of this, I suddenly felt something surged up inside of me.. Yea.. The flame.. The flame that has eluded me all these years.. The true fire of passion for music.. At that point of time, I was really bothered with the fact that I was not good enough.. The spark inside of me was ignited because of this.. I could feel the flame burning...

Music has always been my passion.. Singing is something which I truly enjoy.. I enjoy the process of singing, and I was contented to being able to sing.. But now, I guessed I have found something to work towards to.. The burning determination to establish myself as one of the best singers in our club is something I want to work towards to.. Maybe this may seem to be a little too ambitious, but I could really feel the fire in me that is motivating me to work towards this goal.. The burning flame inside of me is finally ignited..

Don't worry.. I wouldn't allow myself to be engulfed by this flame.. I wouldn't let this flame rule over me.. Instead, I'm going to use this flame to work towards improving my singing.. Hopefully I will be able to sing better in future.. I guess the incident has released the fire in me.. Suddenly, I've found what I really want to achieve..

As of now, I really want to practise the song well.. Although it is a very challenging song, I believe that in order for me to improve, I have to overcome this song.. It has always been my childhood dream to be able to stand on stage one day and touch people's heart with my singing.. Up till this very day, I still hold this dream close to my heart.. The same goes for the future.. I guess I'm somewhat realising this dream now, perhaps on a much smaller scale.. But I'm still working towards my dream.. I guess this is an undeniable trait of a Scorpio.. Yea..