Feelings for her??
Before I start my post for today, I would like to ask myself 1 question: Am I a fickle person?? For the answer to this, I guess it's a yes and a no.. What do I mean by this??
I say I'm a fickle person because I seem to fall in love with someone easily.. Right now in my heart, someone seemed to have filled the void left by SY.. Why is it that someone can fill her place in my heart so easily?? Does this mean that I'm a fickle person?? As to this, I've managed to come up with some reasons.. Firstly, it may be because I'm afraid to commit, hence I did not put in too much of my feelings when I fall for a girl.. With regards to this, I feel that this is not really a good explanation.. Cause I'm very sure I've invested all my feelings in SY.. So another reason I could think of is that I am able to let go of my feelings.. I guess this is a better reason.. Cause although I've committed myself to SY previously, I'm able to let go of my feelings when I need to.. I guess letting go is so much easier than forgetting her totally..
On the other hand, I'll say I'm not really a fickle person because everytime I fall for someone, my heart is totally committed to her.. No one else can take her place at that point of time.. As such, being committed to one person at a time doesn't account for the word 'fickle'.. I'm very positive that when I really fall for someone, I would not think of anyone else.. Hence I don't think I'm fickle in this aspect..
I guess this is a very subjective issue.. Whether do you call me a fickle person or not depends on how you look at things.. I will choose not to call myself a fickle person.. Cause I know my heart can only have one person at a time.. Just call me a person who can let go of my feelings when the need arises..
Ok.. Back to my post for today.. Had lessons today until 1:30pm.. Played tennis with Vincent and Jackson, since our lessons end early today.. Played tennis from 2:15pm to 4pm.. Starting to grasp the basics of playing tennis, although I still have a lot to learn.. Hope to play tennis again someday..
Had a rehearsal today at 6:45pm.. Quite a short one though since my guitarist had to leave early.. Practised at one of the tutorial rooms.. When my guitarist left, me, Ling Chong and SY were told that we can leave.. However, we stayed behind for a while to practise some more on our own.. Had quite a fun time together.. Got to know Ling Chong a bit better.. A nice guy.. Went home after that..
Saw 'her' today.. When I saw her, I guess my feelings were clear.. No doubt, I do have feelings for 'her'.. In the past, my eyes were only on SY.. Perhaps that was why I failed to take real notice of her.. I guess this somehow shows that I'm not a fickle person by my own standards.. But, I do not deny now.. I do have feelings for 'her'.. Yet, I'm still apprehensive.. I guess I need more time to be very sure about this.. So again, I will not reveal her name for now (Perhaps Gun Kiat may have guessed who she is by now).. I need to be very sure of my feelings...
I say I'm a fickle person because I seem to fall in love with someone easily.. Right now in my heart, someone seemed to have filled the void left by SY.. Why is it that someone can fill her place in my heart so easily?? Does this mean that I'm a fickle person?? As to this, I've managed to come up with some reasons.. Firstly, it may be because I'm afraid to commit, hence I did not put in too much of my feelings when I fall for a girl.. With regards to this, I feel that this is not really a good explanation.. Cause I'm very sure I've invested all my feelings in SY.. So another reason I could think of is that I am able to let go of my feelings.. I guess this is a better reason.. Cause although I've committed myself to SY previously, I'm able to let go of my feelings when I need to.. I guess letting go is so much easier than forgetting her totally..
On the other hand, I'll say I'm not really a fickle person because everytime I fall for someone, my heart is totally committed to her.. No one else can take her place at that point of time.. As such, being committed to one person at a time doesn't account for the word 'fickle'.. I'm very positive that when I really fall for someone, I would not think of anyone else.. Hence I don't think I'm fickle in this aspect..
I guess this is a very subjective issue.. Whether do you call me a fickle person or not depends on how you look at things.. I will choose not to call myself a fickle person.. Cause I know my heart can only have one person at a time.. Just call me a person who can let go of my feelings when the need arises..
Ok.. Back to my post for today.. Had lessons today until 1:30pm.. Played tennis with Vincent and Jackson, since our lessons end early today.. Played tennis from 2:15pm to 4pm.. Starting to grasp the basics of playing tennis, although I still have a lot to learn.. Hope to play tennis again someday..
Had a rehearsal today at 6:45pm.. Quite a short one though since my guitarist had to leave early.. Practised at one of the tutorial rooms.. When my guitarist left, me, Ling Chong and SY were told that we can leave.. However, we stayed behind for a while to practise some more on our own.. Had quite a fun time together.. Got to know Ling Chong a bit better.. A nice guy.. Went home after that..
Saw 'her' today.. When I saw her, I guess my feelings were clear.. No doubt, I do have feelings for 'her'.. In the past, my eyes were only on SY.. Perhaps that was why I failed to take real notice of her.. I guess this somehow shows that I'm not a fickle person by my own standards.. But, I do not deny now.. I do have feelings for 'her'.. Yet, I'm still apprehensive.. I guess I need more time to be very sure about this.. So again, I will not reveal her name for now (Perhaps Gun Kiat may have guessed who she is by now).. I need to be very sure of my feelings...