Why did I hesitate??
Feel like kicking myself last night.. Hesitated at the very moment.. Lost the only opportunity I had.. But at least I'm now very sure of my feelings.. Looks like all is not lost..
Went out with Fang Hui for dinner yesterday.. I told myself that I should not do anything before I'm very sure of my feelings.. Since I've decided to ask her out for dinner, I guess I'm now really sure of my feelings.. After going through so much and falling for 2 other girls during this stretch of time, I'm now back to where I've started from.. But somehow, this brings me back to a question that I keep asking myself: Am I a fickle person?? I'm not too sure either.. But one thing I'm very sure about: My feelings for Fang Hui is still there.. I guess I'm not really a fickle person (or so I think), but I am an escapist.. I locked up my feelings for her when I thought that things were not going smoothly a few months back.. I could not let go of my feelings for her.. I chose to escape.. Locking up my feelings in a corner of my heart, and hope that I can find someone more suitable along the way.. Come to think of it, I don't know why I acted in that way.. Or did I really act in that way??
I guess there's no point pondering over this.. Cause I have a feeling that I wouldn't come to any conclusion.. So I should start thinking about what I should do next.. Yea.. I guess that should be the way..
Back to yesterday.. Met Fang Hui at Plaza Singapura at 7pm.. Decided not to go into Plaza Singapura cause it was very crowded.. Made our way towards City Hall.. Along the way, we passed by Paradiz Centre.. Heard the voice of one of my Geyong senior, Edwin.. Turns out that he was performing there with a live band.. Decided to go and take a look.. Since we were already there, we decided to have our dinner there.. Had our dinner at Subway at Paradiz Centre.. The environment there was good.. Having dinner in the open with a live band providing good music.. What more can I ask for?? The feel there was really good..
We left Paradiz Centre at around 8:45pm.. We took the same MRT back cause she needed to go to Boon Keng.. On the MRT, I really wanted to tell her how I feel, cause it was the last chance.. Throughout the time I spent with her yesterday evening, I was thinking whether I should tell her how I feel.. Cause after reading her post that day, I really wanted to tell her about my feelings.. The MRT trip back was my last chance.. But I hesitated.. In the end I didn't say anything.. Feel like kicking myself after that.. Not sure when I will see her again.. Not sure if she had sensed my hesitation...
I guess I'll just have to take things as they come.. Hopefully one day she will know my feelings for her.. Really looking forward to that day...
Went out with Fang Hui for dinner yesterday.. I told myself that I should not do anything before I'm very sure of my feelings.. Since I've decided to ask her out for dinner, I guess I'm now really sure of my feelings.. After going through so much and falling for 2 other girls during this stretch of time, I'm now back to where I've started from.. But somehow, this brings me back to a question that I keep asking myself: Am I a fickle person?? I'm not too sure either.. But one thing I'm very sure about: My feelings for Fang Hui is still there.. I guess I'm not really a fickle person (or so I think), but I am an escapist.. I locked up my feelings for her when I thought that things were not going smoothly a few months back.. I could not let go of my feelings for her.. I chose to escape.. Locking up my feelings in a corner of my heart, and hope that I can find someone more suitable along the way.. Come to think of it, I don't know why I acted in that way.. Or did I really act in that way??
I guess there's no point pondering over this.. Cause I have a feeling that I wouldn't come to any conclusion.. So I should start thinking about what I should do next.. Yea.. I guess that should be the way..
Back to yesterday.. Met Fang Hui at Plaza Singapura at 7pm.. Decided not to go into Plaza Singapura cause it was very crowded.. Made our way towards City Hall.. Along the way, we passed by Paradiz Centre.. Heard the voice of one of my Geyong senior, Edwin.. Turns out that he was performing there with a live band.. Decided to go and take a look.. Since we were already there, we decided to have our dinner there.. Had our dinner at Subway at Paradiz Centre.. The environment there was good.. Having dinner in the open with a live band providing good music.. What more can I ask for?? The feel there was really good..
We left Paradiz Centre at around 8:45pm.. We took the same MRT back cause she needed to go to Boon Keng.. On the MRT, I really wanted to tell her how I feel, cause it was the last chance.. Throughout the time I spent with her yesterday evening, I was thinking whether I should tell her how I feel.. Cause after reading her post that day, I really wanted to tell her about my feelings.. The MRT trip back was my last chance.. But I hesitated.. In the end I didn't say anything.. Feel like kicking myself after that.. Not sure when I will see her again.. Not sure if she had sensed my hesitation...
I guess I'll just have to take things as they come.. Hopefully one day she will know my feelings for her.. Really looking forward to that day...