First English song on stage...
Sang my first English song on stage today.. "Crash and Burn" was the first ever English song I sang on stage.. I wouldn't say I was very nervous.. Cause as usual, the Pavilion was quite sparse with people.. I guess most of the people there were our own people.. But I guess the lack of people made the whole performance not as tensed..
I guess I did a decent job singing the song.. Not many errors, except that I messed up a little on the rhythm during the bridge part of the song.. But past experiences have taught me how to recover from such errors.. I guess the errors were not really noticeable cause I managed to get back on track after a while.. Although I feel that my attempt was decent today, I felt that it did not really measure up to my own standards.. Somehow, I didn't really manage to get the feel I have for Chinese songs.. Perhaps it's because I'm still not used to singing English songs.. But I guess it could be something else.. I guess it's because I have chosen a diificult song to sing.. I admit that the song itself is quite difficult to sing.. But that's not the real problem.. I believe I am able to reach the high notes.. The real problem is the feelings associated with this song.. In my opinion, this song is something between a ballad and a Rock song.. As such, I'm divided between what feelings I should have while singing this song.. This could be why I felt that something was not right while singing this song.. Besides this, I also felt that my voice was not in the best condition recently.. Perhaps it was due to the haze.. I don't really know.. But at least I managed to finish the song today without any major problems..
I guess I'm back to the stage of questioning the quality of my voice.. Somehow, I'm always critical about my own voice.. Am I being too harsh on myself?? I don't know either.. I always felt that my voice is strange.. Can't explain this either.. But if I were to think about this in a positive way, I can tell myself that I have a unique voice.. And a unique voice is something to be treasured in singing.. Well.. I'm not sure about this, but I guess I'll keep on experimenting with my voice until I can tell myself that I am no longer critical about my voice.. Well.. That would take time.. But I'm sure I can make it one day...
I guess I did a decent job singing the song.. Not many errors, except that I messed up a little on the rhythm during the bridge part of the song.. But past experiences have taught me how to recover from such errors.. I guess the errors were not really noticeable cause I managed to get back on track after a while.. Although I feel that my attempt was decent today, I felt that it did not really measure up to my own standards.. Somehow, I didn't really manage to get the feel I have for Chinese songs.. Perhaps it's because I'm still not used to singing English songs.. But I guess it could be something else.. I guess it's because I have chosen a diificult song to sing.. I admit that the song itself is quite difficult to sing.. But that's not the real problem.. I believe I am able to reach the high notes.. The real problem is the feelings associated with this song.. In my opinion, this song is something between a ballad and a Rock song.. As such, I'm divided between what feelings I should have while singing this song.. This could be why I felt that something was not right while singing this song.. Besides this, I also felt that my voice was not in the best condition recently.. Perhaps it was due to the haze.. I don't really know.. But at least I managed to finish the song today without any major problems..
I guess I'm back to the stage of questioning the quality of my voice.. Somehow, I'm always critical about my own voice.. Am I being too harsh on myself?? I don't know either.. I always felt that my voice is strange.. Can't explain this either.. But if I were to think about this in a positive way, I can tell myself that I have a unique voice.. And a unique voice is something to be treasured in singing.. Well.. I'm not sure about this, but I guess I'll keep on experimenting with my voice until I can tell myself that I am no longer critical about my voice.. Well.. That would take time.. But I'm sure I can make it one day...