I did a crazy thing on the last day of 2009.. I actually told the sister of the girl I like that I like her sister.. Sounds complicated?? For now, let's call this girl whom I like yoyo.. On the last day of 2009, I actually told yoyo's sister that I like yoyo.. I guess this is more clear now??
Yea.. I did that.. I did just that.. Perhaps I wouldn't say I told her directly.. Just that we were chatting on msn that day, and I already suspected that she somehow felt that I like her sister.. Cause she was asking me a day back whether my msn personal message was referring to her sister.. I tried to ask her why she said that, but ended up reveling my feelings for her sister to her.. I am such a failure.. Haha... But in a way, the feelings were bottled up inside of me for some time.. So this happened to let me get it off my chest..
I was afraid what her reaction would be like after I told her this.. As expected, she told me she somehow already felt that I have fallen for her sister.. She said she wouldn't try to stop or help me, and said that I will have to depend on myself.. It's true.. I will have to depend on myself for this.. But at least she said she hoped to hear good news from me.. ^^
Maybe a bit on yoyo.. So far, we've chatted mostly on msn and in-game.. I don't know when I started developing feelings for her.. Cause I really didn't realise it until some time back.. Maybe because we have many things in common.. Maybe it's something else.. But the feeling is very special to me.. I've only met her once in person on 25th December.. So I guess I can safely say it's not based on looks.. My feelings for her developed before I met her in person.. Maybe people will say I'm not being practical when I fall in love for someone I never met before until recently.. But all I can say is, sometimes, feelings cannot be controlled.. As least for me...
Not all things are going smoothly as far I can say.. The biggest obstacle is perhaps our age.. She is 6 years younger than me.. I know in this time and age, age difference might not mean much to people in love.. But I can't help but feel that I will be shortchanging her if we are to be together one day.. I know it sounds stupid.. But maybe because I usually put people before myself, and hence, I can't help but feel this way.. But I'm sure I wouldn't mind if she doesn't mind either..
Another obstacle is our character.. I said we have many things in common, and this includes our character.. Both of us happen to be passive people.. And this means that I will find it hard to make a first move, and she might also find it hard to accept something if it is too sudden.. I guess I'll have to find a solution to this..
I guess that's all I can say for now.. Hope things will work for the better this time round.. ^^