After yesterday, I think I've managed to clear a doubt of mine.. What doubt is it?? I'll elaborate later on..
First.. I'll sum up what happened over the last few days.. I've been very slack for the last few days.. A few weeks ago, I'll spend my time in the library doing my tutorials when I have a long break.. However, this wasn't the case during the last few days.. Went out to Jurong Point during the long break on Thursday.. Went out to West Mall during my long break yesterday.. What is happening to me?? I should have spent the time doing my tutorials instead.. Reflecting on what I've done, I finally came to a conclusion.. My motivation to do my tutorials is still there, but my ability to do my tutorials is not.. What does this mean?? This means that while I'm motivated to do my tutorials, I'm not able to do them.. This will bring me to a point whereby I finally decide to give up.. The thought of not being able to do my tutorials is motifying indeed.. I hope I'll come up with a way to get around this problem..
Well.. Enough of the motifying thoughts.. Let me go on to more light-hearted stuff.. Bought a pair of Adidas basketball shoes when I went to West Mall yesterday morning, during my long break.. Really like the shoes when I first set my sights on it.. Decided to buy it since they were having a discount.. With some luck, I managed to buy the very last pair, at a price of $79.90 after the discount.. After that, I went back to school.. Gave a call to Gun Kiat.. Found out he was at home instead of in his hall.. Went back to do the remaining of my lab report.. Was looking forward to the Chinese Society activity in the evening..
Met up with Gun Kiat before we went for our Chinese Society 'Ge Yong' activity.. When we reached there, we found out that we were the 3rd group to perform our item.. Not too long after, the number of people started to increase, and both of us started to become more and more nervous.. Although this was not my first time performing to a crowd, I was also quite nervous as I had not done this for close to 3 years.. To add on to our anxiety, our guitarist, Jun Yian, was delayed.. But things started to take a turn for the better, when Jun Yian came just in time.. Not long after, it was our turn to perform.. I gave my best effort for this perfomance.. I have this feeling that I was doing quite well, in the midst of singing the song, 'Jie Kou'.. This was in spite of the fact that my voice and my body were trembling.. I could feel that I was "on form" when I sang the song.. It was a strange feeling.. I never felt so "on form" before when using the microphone.. I was quite satisfied with my own performance.. Yea..
Well.. I mentioned 1 week ago that I'm going to give my best for this performance, as this was Gun Kiat's first performance, and I want to make it a memorable one for him.. I think I've done what I told myself to do, and that is to give my best for this performance.. When the results were announced, we were quite surprised to find out that we actually won, with 5 out of 8 votes going to our group.. To be frank, I never expected that we could win at the very start.. But after our performance and seeing the other 7 groups perform, I did have this feeling that we might have a chance of winning.. When the results were announced, the feeling we got was great.. This was a real confidence-booster to me.. I think Gun Kiat also felt the same as me.. Yea.. And the judges also commented that I sang the song with emotion.. This was again another confidence-booster for me..
Saw the comments the other 7 groups gave us.. Some groups gave compliments about my voice.. I was very thankful for that, as I always thought that my voice was "strange".. Other groups commented that our harmonizing was good.. But I really need to stress on one point: Our successful performance was a GROUP effort, not only mine.. Credit should be shared among the 3 of us, as without any of us, I think we would not have won.. To Gun Kiat: Don't doubt yourself.. You did great.. Thanks for making the performance a success.. Yea..
Next up was the audition for the Mid-Autumn Festival performance.. Was told to prepare 3 songs for this.. But was only required to sing 1 of them.. Decided to sing Jay Chou's "Ni Ting De Dao" for the audition.. Sang it in front of 2 judges.. When I sang the song, I felt I was singing in a lower key than usual.. This meant trouble.. Sure enough, I encountered some problems when singing the high notes.. Singing in too low a key meant that I'll have problems using my "Jia Yin", as the transition was too great.. As a result, I faced some problems when reaching the high notes.. Luckily I did a decent effort to keep the song on track.. Yea..
After that, the 2 judges gave me their comments on my singing.. They went into great details to tell me what went wrong and what went right.. Overall, they said I need to work on my "Jia Yin".. However, they also commented that I have a good voice to start with.. With all the positive comments dealt out to me last night, I think I can finally dispel all my doubts about my own voice.. I think I should stop being so harsh to myself, thinking that my voice is not suitable for singing.. I should instead work on my voice, and hopefully reach a new level some day.. Yea..
Well.. The above was what I meant, when I said I've finally cleared my doubts.. Felt very relieved to put down this long-standing doubt of mine..
Went out for a game of basketball just now, in the evening.. Actually, it was more of a self practice, as I was alone.. Really wanted to do some execise, as I've not done any for a long time.. I was also very keen to find out whether my old right knee injury is going to give me any problems.. Did some shooting for a start.. Wasn't really accurate.. Did not play basketball for too long.. After which I tried to do a lay-up.. In the midst of doing so, my right knee gave way, bringing me to the ground.. Looks like my knee is giving me problems again.. Or maybe not.. Cause I felt a strain in my thighs.. Didn't want to aggravate my injury, so I decided to do something else.. Thought to myself: if my injury is going to slow down my movements, than I need to improve on other aspects of my game.. 3-pointers came to my mind.. With that, I spent the remaining of my practice time on 3-pointers.. After some time, I decided to do something audacious.. I tried to throw 3-pointers from 1 metre away from the 3-point line.. From what I read, I think this is the actual NBA 3-point line.. Decided to give it a try.. After some attempts, I finally managed to get one in.. A few more soon followed.. Although I'm still not very accurate, but I guess I've just added another new dimension to my game.. Yea..
All this sums up what I've done over the last few days.. I felt that my confidence has increased, especially after receiving all the positive comments.. Hopefully things will get better from this point onwards.. Hopefully I can belt out songs with a polished voice in future.. Yea..